Wednesday, February 11, 2015

I Give God the Absolute Glory!

                 I am telling you this has been a time. I grew up vowing I would not move around because as a child we moved a lot. It seemed like every school year there was almost a new school. So I really did not want that for my children. I wanted them to be stable and happy. So when we recently had to make some changes because "our mortgage holder" was getting a divorce I was crushed. It was time to make some transitions and it felt like we were getting the divorce. It was a reluctant move but one that taught me the importance of seeking a traditional mortgage loan and making a final decision.

                I was having mixed emotions and I did not know what to think. I knew God was blessing our lives and the more he Blessed the more the enemy went to work at destroying our home life. However, although it was a journey we made it by the grace of God. I was mad at my husband because he seemed to be giving everything away. I wanted to keep certain things I had acquired because it was mines but I finally let go.

               Then, as we were moving we lost some important items and I really did not know how much they meant to me until I thought they were gone forever, it was my wedding dress and pictures of our children.Oh the morning I realized they were gone. I cried like a baby, I don't think I had ever cried so much. It was the last week in January and my heart was just broken.

               However, this morning I got a phone call from my husband and the the note we left behind had been answered by this stranger. He had returned my wedding dress and my photos. He really did not know how much it meant to me. God knows I don't care about things unless I really need them. I don't buy expensive things and I will do without until it hurts as long as my children are okay. But I will tell you this, it hurt my heart to the core to lose their photos because we had lost all of their videos when we moved to Charlotte, NC because the apartment complex was a mold filled death trap. We had to throw everything away and what was savored were a few boxes that we had placed in storage. So when I thought I had lost my final memories of their youth and the wedding dress my Godmother had preserved for my daughter I was distraught and heart broken. I truly cried out to God and said "God I can not deal with another disappointment, I really need to get my stuff back." As only God would he touched the heart of this man and as only he could God used a vessel to return my stuff to me. So grateful that God hears our prayers. He is such an amazing God! To GOD BE the Absolute Glory!

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Her legacy was Being a Giver!!

             You know I woke up feeling good this morning. I thought about how people try to say things to make you think you made the wrong decision. They will say something like a compliment but in that same breath say something to make you doubt yourself or make you feel you didn't do it their way. You are not willing to stay on your job and make others rich.....stay in your place....But God! God in that same moment began to touch hearts and show me everything is in His hands. Whether I will work for man or write for God. I think I choose to write for God.

                I transferred my children because that is what I felt led to do. We had continued our commute and boy was there a price. However, when I stopped worrying about how this change would effect us God began to move. The school they went to required uniforms but the school had changed the colors to tan pants only. Well a Sister from church said I have some Navy pants for your boys. I said thank you but I thought well Lord what do I do with them, I didn't want to take something I didn't need. However, I took them because I thought wow how kind.

                Another sister had just gone shopping for the children and I was like wow. All of a sudden all these people are just giving me so many things again. It truly made me realize I am in the right church. God had already proved his love in my transition, he let me know he was working through the people of God we had encountered. I felt like God if I leave this world I can feel confident that these people have shown me their love like Momma said and my family will be okay.

                  I visited a friend who is couponing and she was getting in trouble for "hoarding" so she said take some of this stuff I keep buying.

                  As you know I just left my job a little early for my normal calculations but God isn't working on my calculations.  I went to their new school and guess what was required the navy pants that were given while they were at their old school.That would have cost me another $100.00 plus.

              Next, I am leaving church and that same woman of God said "will this size fit you?" I said yes, she said "I have something for you." I told her that is so God. I just told my husband in our move, I couldn't find several things but my jacket stood out because God used my sister to bless me with the last leather coat I had. I share this testimony to say I don't know how God is going to do what he always does but I trust him to continue to take excellent care of me.

               As a child I can remember my Mom running into an old friend and he was walking on the highway. You could see he was having a hard time.  She said take this set of keys and I will drop the car off to you later. My mother saw him in need and she gave him the car she had. I never forgot how kind my mother was, he lived on the opposite side of New Jersey. I know that her giving is still blessing in my life today.

               It was the 2nd week in January,  I had paid my bills and I paid my tithe and I was finished. I got a call from an old neighbor who said there's a letter here for you. In the envelope was let's just say over a hundred dollars. It was not the amount so much as it was simply the fact that God had touched the heart of someone I had not talked to in a minute to bless me. It is in those moments I realize that if I am obedient I will eat the good of the land.

             No job supplies my needs, it is God and God only who supplies my need. We are the vessels but just look at what God has done. So at the end of my winter God is opening up abundant blessings and I trust him to do above all I could ask or think. Until this day people ask me how I became a Court Reporter and my answer is the same the goodness of God there was nothing I could have done to be blessed with that job. The woman did not know me but she had heard of my testimony and although I had the qualifications for the job it was through hearing a testimony that my life had changed I had finally been blessed with a job I loved. It was a job in which I had to type and read. Reading and writing are what I love to do the most.

Our prayers truly availeth much and he rewards but God rewards you for your testimonies. Remember to share the goodness of just may bless someone today.

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Chasing after peace in drama Mama!

Many people have made new years resolutions and I am committed to mines. I promised I was going to stay away from toxic people and people following any thing other than God's peace. I want to be on the winning team. I will not indulge anyone who has drama and can't address it. I am finished with worrying and trying to please people. I will enjoy those I love and those who love me in return because at the end of the day they really matter. The haters, the two faced people and those who simply hate me for those who love's just too much.  I apologize in advance but I simply don't have time or the energy. I have 5 children and 3 of which I am still trying to raise.

There is a real Devil out there seeking whom he may devour and I have to be on top of my game. I took my eyes off my children for a few months. I simply went back to a call center environment which took too much of my time, and made an hour commute each day and their grades went to hell. I have to be diligent and steadfast. I can not afford to be tired and worried about anybody else's drama. Anyone who knows me knows I don't want nobody else's man or whatever other crazy thoughts one may have. My Dad was an All star and it seemed every woman wanted him because he was handsome, self employed and was bringing in 6 figures. What they did not know was that he and his wife worked hard together to bring forth that fruit. So women thought they were just going to waltz in and take everything and my father and our family paid the price.

So please understand there is nothing I loathe more than a desperate side chick trying to destroy a family. When I sense them in my presence I get so disturbed it is ridiculous. Ask any of my friends, we have a code of honor and when one steps out of that place of honor it will never be the same. I was never willing to date any of my friends ex- boyfriends or even their crushes and I have a man. So just know I  don't want anyone else's man nor do I condone it. Be free from Satan's little devices of jealousy and manipulation because everything is transparent about me. You can truly read about my life on this blog and know I show my failures and truly take a hit. However, I try to keep it real because I know the end of the story, which is I win. My journey is showing all the bumps and the bruises because people always see the victory without recognizing there was a difficult journey to success. I will have the victory as long as my father is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords and that is enough for me. Peace in 2015 that is what I long for!