Friday, October 17, 2014

I'm in it to Win it!

I woke up reflecting on the goodness of God. I examined some things and I realized why I was so discouraged. I shared that I walked away from the church because I felt like if I call myself a christian yet I'm doing no better than the world then what is the purpose.

So, I left and began examining different cultures and different church leaders. The head is what is most important to me, because if the shepherd is right the flock will follow. I must say I challenged God, I told him my Bible doesn't line up with what I am hearing.

If I can't love you who stands before me because I'm always walking in judgment of you something is very wrong. I felt like Christians were picking and choosing who to love. I felt like some were manipulating the scripture to build their empires. I don't want that. I want to love the Jacobs, the Joseph's and the woman with the issue of blood. To me that is walking in true power. That's walking out my true calling. I want to make sure that your encounter with God let's you be truly free, a place where you fish for yourself. Nothing broken, to be totally whole and set free, that is what this walk means to me.

So when I walked away I said "God show me your love." It was not easy God has to bring you to your knees sometimes. However, when Gods vessels got in motion I knew it was nobody but God. Everything that was offered was offered without selfish motive or gain. The people God used weren't saying God, God, they were actually showing me God. They didn't care about the almighty dollar, they were concerned about my families eternity. Even down to my transition it was So God. I stood on John 14 and God prepared a place for me it was offered with such sincerity. When I moved the transaction was nothing like the world, she discerned and she handed us our key. I share this testimony to say Thank you God for restoring my faith for showing me your Love and for knowing nobody wants to be in a mess. Jesus was not mad at the woman with the issue of blood , He was mad that the disciples did not know God's power through love.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Sometimes we are called to bare one another's burdens for true freedom

I was recently finding myself in that place where you just get so weary in well doing. However, I had to remind myself that someone bared the burden for me when I was being raised. I am so very grateful for my mother God rest her soul. Now I understand when she said it was not easy raising us.

Sometimes, people see you raising children and they think it is so easy. For the most part it was, but when you have 5 sometimes it can just seem like it is always something. I had to call my sisters and just say pray my strength. Then an old friend showed up to remind me I am not alone. She traveled a long way and it blessed my heart so much. She even blessed my children which always means so much to me.

Sometimes when God gives us an assignment it can seem so easy. However, when you try to walk that thing out for the greater good of all you can truly come against significant opposition. I thank God for those of you who held up my husbands arms and kept us in prayer. It was so appreciated. As we bare each others burdens may we continue to walk this walk with God's mercy and grace. Be Blessed and keep us in your prayers as we strive for true freedom.