Meghan Markle & Prince Harry

Oh this made me want to write again! In response to some of the craziest feedback. Number one this is a huge deal! Do you all realize that in any country we are scorned as black people? No matter how beautiful, how talented and how 110% above the bar we are? 

It doesn't matter that some of you say Meghan Markle does not identify herself as being black which I believe is untrue. It does make a huge difference on how future generations will be perceived. You can only drive out hatred with love. This is a prime example of that. Do you believe that if Prince Harry has a son with Meghan Markle that laws will not change? He will protect the kingdom. Know that nobody is going to bring harm to future black descendants of Prince Harry.

This is the KKK's biggest fear, that people will begin to love each other from all walks of life and embrace their humanity. For the royal family to embrace the love of Prince Harry's life is definitely a huge deal. It is not about the past hatred that exists. It is about changing that hatred for many generations to come!

When they say there is no God....it's pure rubbish

When they say there is no God....I have to smile! I can recall becoming a Federal Court Reporter. A woman I knew nothing about contacted me and said she had heard my 
testimony and knew my background was perfect for this job. When I got the job 
50- 60 year old men kept saying...How did you get this job? However, I would simply respond the goodness of God. They would say it truly is because your people don't get 
this job. When they went on to call me their #1 Reporter they were in awe.

You see they couldn't understand how God could change the hearts of man. 
The opportunity came from God and the woman he used was a willing vessel who 
wanted to change this scene before she left.

You see even they had to admit that "In the sticks" this job was reserved for the wives 
of the Judges etc. So you see I don't want the rocks to cry out for me. I won't let man 
take credit for what God has done. I just feel led to share this testimony with someone.

But to GOD be the GLORY! Remember these scriptures.....won't He do it!

Luke 19:37-40New King James Version (NKJV)

37 Then, as He was now drawing near the descent of the Mount of Olives, the whole multitude of the disciples began to rejoice and praise God with a loud voice for all 
the mighty works they had seen, 38 saying:

“ ‘Blessed is the King who comes in the name of the Lord!’[a]

Peace in heaven and glory in the highest!”

39 And some of the Pharisees called to Him from the crowd, “Teacher, rebuke Your disciples.”

40 But He answered and said to them, “I tell you that if these should keep silent, the stones would immediately cry out.”

Psalm 14King James Version (KJV)

14 The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God.

My God is able and HE IS KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS! Never forget it!

The world and my children are challenging me so I better meditate on the word

This morning my daughter said to me "Mom see where being kind gets you".... I had to really reflect on her words. I said "You be kind because you should be." Not a very good answer. However, we can't let others dictate who we should be.  I was really at a loss for words. Here I am being someone I may not be. I was once this fighter who rarely lost at anything. Yet today as a Christian I find myself possibly forgiving too much and being tolerant of too much. Some how being kind has mixed itself with being tolerant of foolishness. She's right sometimes you can't be Kind. You have to be stern and show people that you are not willing to accept their lies, their deceit and their behaviors and allow them to take responsibility for their actions. How do I continue to teach them to be kind when people are clearly not kind? Help me Lord on this journey to live by faith and not by sight. Simply meditating on your word Lord.

Ephesians 4:32(ESV)

32 Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.

The Writing has always been on the wall

In life people show you who they are time and time again. You want to believe everyone was brought up with the same values, so you will overlook and forgive and forget time and time again, The hope is that one day they will see your kindness and somehow be healed. I am at the end of this writing crusade but I wanted to share one tidbit. I just want to say one love is all you need. Choose for yourself, be wary of who gives you love advice and be quick to forgive but know that only you know if you can forget and keep that person in your life.

Morality in the South...I so desperately want to believe everyone was taught the golden rule

My time in the south has been a very difficult one. I have had quite a few mountains. I sometimes wonder if I just want to believe people were all taught what I was taught. To simply treat people the way you want to be treated. I try to avoid drama at all costs and just raise my family with simple values to be kind to people, and to do right by others. Yet I am learning daily that the world is filled with people who believe that they should get over.

I don't feel good if I have not done right by someone so I always try to go back and fix any offense if I can. Whether it's as simple as getting too frustrated with others or forgetting to do something I promised. I grew up remembering people wanting to do the right thing. Has the world just become over populated by people who just believe that as long as their benefiting it's okay to take advantage of others. I just don't remember people being so treacherous up north. Guide me Lord.

Grateful for Wisdom and God's Love Proverbs 22:6

Growing up my mom made sure we understood how important it was to be happy for others. In church I learned the importance of allowing my children to have their moments. From making sure they have their own special day to teaching them that they are a team. They should not be feeling envious of the other because they each have their own gifts from God. Momma would say today for me but tomorrow is for you.

 I am grateful when I see my two oldest interact these days. There was a moment in there where I wondered if they were ever going to find their way back to being the best of friends. As I watched them grow I saw the word Proverbs 22:6 manifest this year "you train a child in the way that they should go and when they are old they will not depart from it." I give God the Glory that his word did not come back void. I am not raising my children in the ways of the world. Therefore, I don't expect them to do anything but support and love one another. No jealousy, definitely no shade and no negative seeds will prosper. Prayerful that they will stay on the same team and nurture and support one another because they are better together. They will definitely need each other in some capacity or another, therefore, I pray unity over my children and continued strength.

Too much emphasis on Like these days......They didn't like Jesus or Dr. King.....

I know social media wants you to believe you should be liked. Well, I remember as a child coming home from school crying saying Mom "they were saying mean things and they don't like me." My mother looked me in the eye and said "You came in this world alone and you will leave it alone. It is when they like you....... that is when you should be worried. They are going to talk about you and they will not like you." She said "They didn't like Jesus and they didn't like Martin Luther King, Jr either." I say this to remind my children and others that change is uncomfortable and people don't like you when you make a difference. In the words of my mother your life should mean something and you should make a difference for the next generation as long as God loves you that is all that matters. It's when they like you too much and stop talking about you is when you should be concerned.

My previous post was selfish and sometimes you have to be...

I hope people understand because I almost deleted my last post. I asked my husband if I should delete it because it may hurt people's feelings. He responded "no, the truth hurts." I had to truly figure out how we move forward in life with all of us feeling fulfilled. I can not expect my husband to stay in places he is unfulfilled and he does not expect me to stay in places I feel unfulfilled.

I grew up in New Jersey so the south and the north are like day and night, I have learned some good things about living in the south though. You have to create your own destiny and create your own wealth. You have to leave a legacy behind and truly be the CHANGE you want to see.

I can dwell on the statistics and cry that the school system will never provide our children with an adequate education or I can see to it that my children get what they need. Last year, we were paying $400-$600.00 a month on tutoring for my youngest son. I thought that is enough to send my child to private school or I can use that money to create a safe place for all children to get additional assistance. My children are all creative, some more academic than others.

My daughter is more like I was leaning towards academic honors but even more brilliant. She maintains a 4.0 and she works in Charlotte, I drive her 45 minutes there because I am not ready for her to deal with small town thinking to some degree. Yet, she is not my biggest concern because she will be successful no matter where she goes. However, my sons are leaning more towards the creative side with the exception of 2 of the 4. One has already paved his way to college and one has paved his way to being certified in HVAC and fiber optics and towards being self employed.

I have 2 young sons left to raise who share similar qualities. I am grateful for the time I had in Charlotte, NC where there was a tremendous amount of support through programs such as UNCC where the children were able to get additional Science and Math courses on Saturdays. I am extremely grateful to programs such as the Urban League who blessed my husband and son with training and the ability to get better paying jobs. I am forever grateful to Victory Christian Center for showing us that life can be excellent when you create your own. They have amazed the Charlotte community by creating their own schools, their own programs and always upheld excellence in all that they do. They gave my children a fun environment to learn about Christ and a Friday fun night they will always cherish.

What my purpose in life is to do is not only to help my children succeed but to make sure there are resources available to combat the idea of the starving artist to ensure our children and other children the ability to pave their own way. To help them realize their source is the Almighty God and that man should not be the captain of their fate. To truly help them mobilize and learn to take the lemons they are given and make lemonade stands. So moving forward understand my reason for being selfish is to maximize my purpose so that one day we may truly be selfless in the best possible way. It is definitely time for change.

P.S.  I also salute people like Jada Pickett for recognizing that we can love the programs such as the award shows that exist but that we must understand that we can create our own platforms to acknowledge our successes as well!!!

Blessings.

Neicy

The 10 things I would tell my younger self

I had a moment today to reflect and realize so many things:

1. I realized you can't make anyone's life better unless you take care of yourself first. I have tried every role possible to make my family life better but at the end of the day. You are responsible for you. I and my husband have gone back and forth about what went wrong and what went right. I have spent my best years sharing my husband with everyone else from business to everything else.

2.We all come with baggage but my mom advised me to realize you can't fix what is broken in others. You have to realize that you will be blamed no matter what. My mother said he received you as you are and you received him as he is, the parents must take responsibility for what they did not provide. No matter what you do, you can not go back into his youth and fix what damage a broken home creates. She advised me I am not God and I can only do what I can to support my mate.

3. As a woman you will want to nurture and fix everything and if you are not careful you will make it a life long objective and one day you will wake up and realize your life has passed you by. As a wife and mother I have had 6 lives to influence. My husband and I have influenced each other and there are habits that our children take from both of us.

4. However, I would tell my younger self you are only able to provide advice. It is up to each individual to take that advice and do what they will with it. I have 2 sons that were given the exact same advice yet one chose work over college which is the same path as his father which thoroughly frustrates his father. The other has chosen college as the priority which is the same path as his mother, I only pray he will stay on course and finish his career path. I believe they are both going to be successful. However, the road for one has been harder than the other. It breaks my heart. However, I provided them with the same guidance. Yet they have chosen different paths. I will get blamed no matter what. Sometimes I feel like Momma in Tupac's song. "No matter what we blamed Momma."
I want to be an anchor for everyone but now I realize all my years I can never get back. I hope that the prophecy will hold true that one day my children will take excellent care of me. However, I have never been one to rely on others and I don't want to spend my life relying on others. I need my independence and my own successes.

5. I would tell my younger self be the fabulous lawyer or successful business woman that everyone expected you to be. I would say continue to shine and to say "boys and school just don't mix." I feel like life will get the best of you if you don't accomplish your goals in your youth.

6. Next, although you assist in running your husbands business you will never feel the fullness of life if you don't take time to accomplish your own goals. You will lose yourself and realize that it may not have been worth it. You will seek to be appreciated and not realize that what you are longing for can only come from God.

7. Trust your instincts, not everyone is in it as a friend there will be the ones who never rode the bus with you who will seek your blessings for themselves. You will see their behavior shift when they see you ready to ride the limo. There are many people who will "desire things" and it will keep you from buying the things you need for your business and it will seem like your sacrifices were in vain.

8. Recognize your gifts from God and use it for his glory. Don't spend your time dibbling and dabbling and putting your desires on hold. Travel and see the world. Don't allow jealousy to hold you back. Don't let anyone stop your interviews from taking place because you desire to make them comfortable.

9. Find your business of choice and pray that God will direct your path so that you may become the Proverbs 31 woman God designed you to be. Make sure you continue to learn from the successful Proverbs 31 women who understands "that she had a lot of help" as my pastor's wife once said.

10.Never leave yourself vulnerable to life. Follow your insides at all times and you make the decisions because only you will have to live with them.

Still battling with Fed Loans...an online diary of my battle....... hope it helps someone

Student loans are ridiculous it's amazing when you stop responding to them they set up payments. Then if you pay on time for a year and it is transferred to Fed Loans they don't  know how to process your online application or maintain your payment arrangements, so they cancel my online application for my annual review. They also received my second written application on December 14, 2015 by certified mail and have not processed it.

They advised me to pay nothing until it is received verbally, then I get an email to pay until it is processed. Finally, today I get a call from them. I call back and they offered me a forbearance until March 31, 2016. Now I have been asking for a forbearance ever since I found out all of my loans were not included in the original payment request.  I don't want to give up all my rights and consolidate, I simply want a reasonable repayment plan.

It's not about the culture...It's about having good moral value...simply right from wrong

We live in a society that is so quick to point the finger. I had a mother who simply taught us color does not matter. If you break it, you fix it. If you break someone else's property or damage it you make it right and replace it. If you do something wrong there will be consequences. No one can deny that our police department has been taught to be trained liars. They believe their own lies. The recent videos that have surfaced show they have been taught if they can articulate a lie it is okay. However, they stand behind a uniform that is suppose to represent and command honor, respect and loyalty.

When you see a murder on video or a grown man throwing a child across the room in her chair at school, how can you even begin to justify the behavior? I think we use terms like entitled, white privilege, and white lies to sugar coat what it really is. I am a believer in calling you what you are. I tell my children they are lying if they are lying to help them understand it is not just a tale, it is a LIE when you don't tell the truth you have lied. I tell them the TRUTH because I truly want them to be HONORABLE.

The culture can not be judged by black or white the culture can only be judged by wrong or right. We need to stop hiding behind little cliches that make us feel like it is okay to be dishonorable. We need to hold people accountable for their actions whether they are white, black, green or pink. We have to get to a place where we are honorable people.

We are dealing with a situation right now where an entity has caused us major harm. We are expecting them to do the right thing and fix our property. The problem is they are trying to minimize what they need to do to correct it. They should want to correct the harm they have done and I should not have to force them to do so. People wonder why illness and sickness come on them but we have to do right by each other. I simply leave people in the hands of God, this is not my world and I am only here but for a short time. I simply try to do the right thing. If I break it I am going to pay for it because it is the right thing to do. It may take me time to juggle all my expenses but I am going to fix it.

If we could just take our selfish ways out of the equation in America we could truly be the greatest nation ever. However, it is the lack of discipline and ability to truly be honorable that makes us suffer in the end.  I was raised to believe if you do good, good will follow you so I have tried my best to do good. I trust God to vindicate me. I trust God to vindicate all the people who have been harmed by our police departments across the nation. I only pray that our officials will ensure there are better practices in hiring the people who are suppose to serve and protect. I only pray that we will teach our children to be better than we were and to live their lives in an honorable way and then God can do the miraculous and heal our land.

2 Chronicles 7: 14 said it best 14 If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

2 Angels went home to be with the Lord, during Cancer Awareness, Saturday October 25, 2015

My heart has been heavy this weekend and yet I could not tap into why. I just told my husband Friday it was like Deja vu without the pain. Years ago he lost a cousin and I was in pain the night before. I told my husband someone is in excruciating pain and I don't know what to do. My pastor later told me I was being prompted to pray. Well it happened again "I told my husband it is happening again without the pain this weekend, but my husband was the one who reminded me to pray. I don't handle death well so I have tried to avoid it. I suppose I believe if I don't believe it is coming it will somehow go away.

Unfortunately, I lost someone who was really good to me as a child. Someone so close she was my (Step) Mom. My heart hurts mostly for my sister because although I tried my best not to get in the way. I know I needed to reach out more. I know my regret is normal and I know death visits all of us. My heart truly aches for my husband's clients because they too lost their baby boy to cancer as well that night.

I know in Christ we should be rejoicing because there is no more pain and they are rejoicing with our heavenly father in a much better place. Yet my heart hurts and my heart yearns to reunite these lovely angels with their earthly loved ones again. I know that doesn't make much sense but love hurts and death hurts tremendously and Momma Bev you were truly loved and will be greatly missed. You were such an Angel to all of us. Xander I know you are looking down on your parents and siblings with Love. I just ask that each and everyone of you keep all our families in prayer as we enter this journey of the ceremonies to unite our loved ones with our heavenly father.

Blessings,

Gratitude! No one owes me anything.....

After last week I must say it only taught me I want to teach my children the importance of gratitude. Sometimes we have to reflect, I said what did I miss with my own children to ensure they are not ungrateful? One day they will be completely raised and turned over to someone else. I thought "God.....Mom emphasized gratitude. I thought you know people would always say "everything comes so easy to you." Then, my Vice Principal played back in my head "Do you know why I always call you to these events to dine with the Governor etc?" I said "No." She responded "because you were always willing to help and you wanted to make this place better." They didn't have to make sure I had a wonderful high school experience but they did. They cleared the mine traps and made sure I could soar. I say this to share the importance of gratitude. I was always taught that nobody owes me anything. If someone is kind enough to help you or give you something no matter how raggedy or small you think it is you appreciate it. The reward is that one day when they are able to bless you with something better they just may depending on how you receive your smaller blessings. That always stuck with me.

So like yesterday I was totally wowed! I have been praying for the right relationships and God has just opened some doors that only he can open. I felt a heaviness the night before and it was like me and my husband just could not get along. I told my husband look we are in the middle of this transaction and you know the enemy gets his busiest when something good is unfolding. So we took a moment to reevaluate why we were at odds. We squashed it immediately and moved forward and surely the goodness of God was manifested. I don't know why God does what he does because in this flesh we may not even deserve it but I know it is nothing that we have done that makes him love and bless us as he does. It is all because of who He is and the plans he has for our lives. We are just absolutely grateful for our new found relationships. I pray to continue to have great news to keep you updated on what God has in store for the next generation of Artists & Writers!

Blessings.....

Thank you to my haters!.... It's really not about me or you!

It's so funny I had to really say thank God for people who get under my skin. I have found that my writing is fueled by my emotions. After a successful start in a new venture, I heard there were moans and groans. I had to laugh because when you have paid for everything and tried to help people get a start and they come at you with complaints you can truly blow a fuse and say words you really don't mean. I had an idea and my husband helped see it to fruition. I love children so I would do anything to give them my all.

Without saying too much "the indecisive and self centered had to criticize "well why didn't you do this and why didn't you do that?" I told my husband this is why I don't bother, I would much rather make a donation and keep it moving than waste my energy on people who have chosen to be where they are and murmur and complain. I know it's important to do it for the greater good but God also said "don't cast your pearls before swine." So for me that means don't waste your time on ungrateful, complaining folks.

However, my husband being the good man that he is said they don't matter. What matters is you fed people that were hungry and he described someone who was really down on their luck and how by saying "please let everyone eat and allow them to donate to the children if they can"  you fed someone that day. He said "God used you to bring forth his idea that would bless someone." I was really upset at this point and said "wow, we can really let our haters get us off course sometime. There was definitely a lesson in what was going on last night.

I was upset because I was like "you have been thinking about it, but did nothing but come in to church with excuses about why you did not contribute," but then you come at us for making it happen. It may not have been perfect but it was a start. A start that isn't about you or me. A start that is about the future generations having good activities, scholarships and memories of church. A chance for the youth to know God is a giving God and he's not there just to collect your tithes and offering but that He is a Giving God who wants relationships. For me it's not about money or catering to your egos. It truly is about the children and the future generations because we have had our time to do what we were to do. It's time we learn to bless our children's children and prepare for their enormous future.

WAR ROOM An Excellent film and gentle reminder!

I must say this film absolutely brought me to tears. I was truly asking God what do we do? I was definitely at this place in my life. I needed a gentle reminder that my husband and I are not each others enemy and that we are at war not with flesh and blood. This film helped me put so many things in perspective. I am at that point in life where the children are almost grown and I have to deal with all that was shoved under the rug like my student loans and my career and academic goals.

Therefore, everything was irritating me and my husband as much as we love each other was really getting under my skin. Sometimes you have to reevaluate and decide if you are going to be bitter or better and I choose better. I am not saying things are perfect but God knows it has been much better since seeing this film. It reminded me of how I felt when I saw Fireproof but with so much more teaching about prayer and as much as I found myself in prayer over the years, I found myself truly feeling like a warrior these past few weeks.

So I must say I have thoroughly enjoyed seeing the movie War Room. It is a film I can take my entire family to see and feel good about it. There are not many films today that you can watch and know your family is going to be that much better after seeing it but this is truly the film of the year! Thank God for our church for sharing this film on a night only my husband attended because we were in need of this film.

I'm yet still holding on....holding on to my faith...I will be debt free...and start anew

"I'm yet still holding on" ... I really feel like that quote today. I have been wrestling with the student loan servicer who has apparently misled me. I have completed the process to get my loans out of default and they even congratulated me. Yet, I am now learning that when they advised me that I was paying on all my loans it was untrue. After losing thousands of dollars that were never applied to my loans through garnishments, I took the punches because I was too depressed about my mom dying to fight. I figured all things would work together for my good. I can remember struggling for a month to get to work right after Mom died only to be advised over $2,800.00 had been garnished, yes my entire paycheck because I was a federal contractor and they did not have to follow the 25% rule the rest of the world was afforded. I was a federal contractor and therefore they could take 100% of my check.

So now I have kept my end of the bargain and paid monthly to learn that the Perkins loan can not become a part of my payment agreement with my stafford loans unless I sign away my rights via a consolidation program which states I can never have loan forgiveness and or other opportunities if I choose to teach etc. The agency attempted to gain my user name and password and then proceeded to tell me aww you don't need to read that it's the same disclosures you read when you did the rehabilitation. Thank God for my Mother who instilled in us that we should read everything. Some of these loan agencies are so ruthless and devoid of truth. I am appalled that they get away with so much.

I don't know my next step outside of hiring an attorney but I will not sign my rights away to pursue the same opportunities afforded to everyone else in this nation because I chose to feed my children in lieu of paying my student loans at one point. The agencies refused to come to a reasonable agreement until 2013. Therefore, I will find a solution that will allow me to pay back this $4,500.00 and $1,950.00 dollar loan deal I made with "the Devil" obviously. I have learned my lesson about student loans and I only hope others will learn from my mistakes. I am not saying ....don't take them out if you have to but know that they can be used to keep you out of school if you don't have the resources to pay them off upon graduation. It appears the subsidized stafford loan and unsubsidized stafford loans are willing to work with you but the perkins loan is a "university loan" so they don't follow the same rules. The Perkins loan has been the beast that holds my transcript. So what do you do when you have done everything they have asked. You stand, you pray and you do whatever it takes within reason and you expect results.

Giving God the Absolute Glory!

                      Last night was an absolute answer to my prayers. I went to Wednesday Service and I must say the Minister of Music Minister Bethea truly taught the word of God and most importantly the love of God. I could not have felt more relieved, when he began to deal with the root of the problem and how the spirit of rejection is a spirit and how we should be sensitive to those who are hurting so that they can get healed. As the people began to share their stories and their pain I was wowed! I was right there with them, just as broken and flawed. This is what church is about, loving people enough to help them heal. I really felt like you get it. It is about a war with Satan and his principalities. It is not about us fighting with one another in the flesh.

                   When we get to the place where the enemy knows he is revealed that is when we can get free and truly get the work God has predestined us to do. I walked out feeling truly inspired. I must say that although in the flesh I have been fighting with Augusta State University about releasing the last of my student loans to the loan servicing agency I have been paying for the last year. Even that thorn in my side could not take my joy. I don't normally let things linger this long but I have never truly gotten over the aggravation that place caused my life. It was the worst wrong turn I think I ever took. If I could turn back the hand of time I would have remained at Seton Hall University where they wanted us to succeed as opposed to such a University that has done everything to ensure bondage. I will be breaking free from this debt. This place has given it's students a million hoops to jump through. The only University I know that does not follow the rules and allow you 6 months to repay your loan after graduating and denies forbearances. Please keep me in prayer!

                 However, back to my testimony. I am just super excited about the teaching we received on Wednesday night and the deliverance and prayer that took place in the house of God. I could not have been more overjoyed to know that the work of God is taking place. Church is not just about looking good, it is truly about being good and helping hurt people get healed!

Pray for my strength in the Lord!

As I find myself in a place where I believe God would have me to be I am struggling again. I only ask that you pray my strength in the Lord. As usual each time I write an article my faith is challenged. I find myself in a position of questioning why it is so important to dwell on people being able to put up with the foolishness in the church. I have a standard in which I expect the church to know better and be better. As our Pastor preached I squirmed because yes I feel it is better to walk away from people who waste so much time dwelling on foolishness. Just as God was dealing with my heart a deacon got up and said "Yes we are gonna talk about you and I felt like, wow did you just contradict everything the Pastor has said this morning about being better since you know better. Everything he just said about making people feel comfortable and loved in the church. Did you hear anything he said about us being an example and a light?

Maybe I am not receptive because I grew up with people who loved on you in the church. I grew up so filled with activity we did not have time to be in everybody else's business. We just found time to love on them. We spent our weeks planning how we could enjoy this life God blessed us with by participating in pottery classes and taking ice skating trips and having pageants and field trips. Maybe I don't feel at peace with back biting and negativity "being the norm" because for me it was not normal. I was a very sheltered child and I only remember the congregation focusing on the positive. Maybe I am looking for that loving church I grew up in. I just know something about today's service just did not sit well with my soul. I felt a contradiction was taking place and I struggled to receive it peacefully. I just felt like can we move on and let the holy spirit move within us. I just ask that you continue to pray my strength in the Lord and help me overlook people and any foolishness that is not of the Father. More of you God and please less of me as I overcome this struggle by the blood of the lamb.

Beautiful week filled with God's love

                              Last week was one of illness, I was not on my prayer post. The virus hit my daughter then my husband and then me. I had to get on my knees and tell sickness it has no place in my house. I know better, we can not afford to be caught off guard. However, the following week was a week of recovery I began the week off with breakfast with my Sister in Christ in which I was blessed to fellowship and share my desires and receive some confirmation to my concerns about moving forward in the next phase of my life. I am always compelled to be certain that my moves take nothing away from my family. However, I also understand that sometimes we have to do for ourselves in order to do for our family. I appreciate the vessel of God that she was willing to be.

                            My week went on and as I entered the house of God I was struggling with my stubborn side but as I heard Minister Bethea preach I knew the word was for me. I had just been asked why I write in certain genres and I reflected and I had referred back to my first writing opportunity interview and about if we were truly more like Jesus....what could we truly do for the kingdom. I have been praying more of you God and less of me and show me me. I loved her teaching because she taught in such a way that it was not condemning but just as the Bible suggests that we should be. We should teach the younger generation in love. So as I heard Minister Bethea make reference to how she too had experienced that which she faced it took away my guard and made me open to receive her message. I have been to many churches in which there were people who were bourgeoisie and some had a right to be, while others did not. There is nothing I lose interest in more than people who feel their drug addiction or alcohol condition and ability to overcome makes them better than the man struggling with his "heart condition." I believe a sin is a sin and a struggle is a struggle and if Jesus acted like some of us....."Lord, where would we be?"

                           I say this to say the week was a blessing because I did not encounter that foolishness this week. I actually encountered people who were sincere in their love of Christ and for all of his people and for that I am eternally grateful because I have had a low toleration for haughtiness since I know we are all flawed to some degree. My struggle maybe my grief and yours maybe your addiction but the Almighty Father LOVES us unconditionally and will continue to nurture us and love us on this journey because we serve an unconditional God. So when the Prodigal shows up we should all have open arms like Jesus!  He really does not want any of us to be lost. Luke 15:11-32

RoboCop is on the way...listen for that small still voice

The lack of human compassion is on the rise.
Yet that should be of no surprise.
Many prophecies are being fulfilled.
Murderers are hired to kill.
Trained liars it's no surprise they were taught to articulate the demise.
The demise of humans and especially black lives.

Black lives matter to those who have a human side.
We live in a world of unfair laws and the loopholes are far too wide.
Color doesn't matter they are achieving a goal.
The presence of a one world currency and robots for cops I am told.
A system set forth on the principals of control.

So if my silence concerns you don't be so abrupt.
Realize I am in a quiet place until my time is up.
There is so much work to do I am not just spinning my wheels.
I am listening to my heavenly Father because he knows the true deal.